over-acheivers,go-getters and heartaches

foto by Lammy Dammy
Here we are friends, the end of one of the greatest years 2010. I have been overly productive, I spent 30 days total in New Orleans this year, five weeks in California and the rest in the NW.
I vow to spend more time in Portland this year and to visit some new p[laces, maybe Tennessee/Austin/Rome and Berlin those are my visionary vacations that I'd like to bring the dollies to, and show em off they do love to travel...
I produced about twenty five shows this year and will plan on doing half as many in 2011, my soul can't be spread so thin.
EVERYDAY i DREAM OF WAKING UP IN NEW ORLEANS, WALKING IN THE QUARTER HAVING LATE-NITES HOPPING FROM ONE DECREPIT DRINKING HOLE TO ANOTHER.
For now I am happily nestled in the NW. I have fallen in love again with SF, the warm sun on my body felt divine last week, driving over the bay bridge in the morning with Jayne County blaring from the Speakers...priceless..
My soul is torn...I may have three lovers now!!!just what i needed!!!!NOLA,SEATTLEI know i need to bring in a higher income this year to survive and to get me to where i need to be!
i will start my grant writing skills so i can create installations and performances and not rely on buyers and voyeurs so much,I have deleted my website, and have decided to be a lil less in the public eye, i feel that there are vultures out there trying to poke and peck at my eyes and heart, giving to much takes away from my creativity, as I learned the hard way in 2008, yet i am filled with the love and inspiration from others, finding the balance is the true trick.

my eyes shall bleed here is my other forcast on love and more heartache

special relationship which celebrates one's growth as a woman. Creativity which manifests as physical product, whether that be children, artistic endeavors, or wealth.



Great energy that flows unbounded. Beginning of a focused, creative period. Inspiration that inspires action. New opportunities. The active, or yang, aspect of life. Growth.



Movement into the next phase of life. If you are feeling impatient, don't worry--transitions will go smoothly, as if you are being pulled by the twin forces of fate and fortune. Career advancement.



An interest in spiritual knowledge. A teacher who will share with you what you are seeking, or perhaps you are that teacher. Wisdom gained in a graceful manner.



A renewed awareness of the nature of passionate love, and what is needed to encourage it. Artistic creativity. Sexuality. The integration within oneself of the masculine and feminine.



Worries that keep one awake. An issue that needs to be looked at more closely; only then will it be transformed. Fear or nagging anxiety.



Success, good fortune,creativity. All is well with the world; your highest hopes are supported by the universe. Any feelings of insecurity and unworthiness are to be banished from your thoughts. Follow your dreams without fear or censure.



Great satisfaction. Contentment. Some consider this card the wish card -- meaning a wish will be granted if this card appears in a spread. Earthly delights

A recent Tarot reading for ye ol' heart

This is a period for communication, a period for social life, for meeting new people. Pursue new activities. You'll find in them the solution to many problems; you'll be positively surprised. 



You need to think about you. You have to take a break; you are dominated by the speed at which events are happening without realizing that you've forgotten about you and your feelings. You have the support of your friends. Enjoy loneliness! It will help you discover what you really want but can't have yet. You'll find love sooner than expected.



Look at all the things that surround you. A new kind of energy has sprung in you, filling you with love; it is time now to learn how to use all this. Enjoy even the smaller things of life. Your bright ideas will favor the people around you. Favorable period to start a stable relationship.

You are seeing the results of your efforts and this stimulates you; you’re getting closer to the goals that you’ve set. Think carefully before taking any decision, this is a period of drastic changes in your life. You'll have enough confidence to move forward with courage and not to give up. Period of spiritual growth. A dream will be reborn. New lovers and relationships.



TEMPERANCE AND DREAMS: You have to set goals, objectives, dreams; those are the things that give meaning to our lives. Be confident; you'll achieve everything that you want because you have the energy and strength to do it.



This is a favorable period for friendship. Let new people enter in your life. Discover new and interesting friends in your workplace or college. You'll feel protected by people who love you and respect you. Suggest new and exciting activities to share with your friends; you'll live unforgettable moments.


JUSTICE AND SEX: During this period it is very likely that your personal conflicts will affect sex with your partner. You'll feel confused, and even in some occasions, you'll have to pretend to be alright. Try to talk about this with some intimate friend because the negative consequences of this period may affect the future stability of your relationship. If you don't have a partner, be sensible when selecting one.

Magick will makethe dreams a reality for me and for you

Sooooo, here I am the end of another year and damn the new year is 2011, how in the world is it 2011?
I just finished 4 shows in California, for some reason no matter how great everything is I become depressed at the end of these events,
I will hold a NYE gathering at my home and once again we will all dance under the moon indulge in mango curry with our champagne, burning our wishes into the midnight wind.
I feel un-satisfied with my position right now and hope that this will help,
I feel like giving up on all my projects and art and becoming a seaside recluse,
yet that would most likely only make me feel worse it is a fantasy of mine...


the power of the eclipse on Dec 20th was astounding and filled me with such ideas that i closed my eyes tight to make wishes!
this year I'd like to take my self and art and friends to places we all haven't been yet!
my heart yearns to experience soil that i have yet to step foot upon....
will this cure my emptiness?
will it inspire my aura?
will i ever be a complete being?
i have strong wishes, fantasies,dreams,desires,wants,needs,that I hope to fulfill...

Miss O's Holiday massacre tour is finished...

First of all I want to thank everyone that made it to the shows!it means alot to me ! I want to thank all the persons that helped and co-produced,housed,hosted,cooked and supported these shows!
JAck Shit, Dog Swan, Kent Kates,Richie Flame!



Each show was very special and i like to think very different from the others, from cabaret trash,gutter glamor,glittery bunny bottoms to raw ear candy!

The new project i am involved with debut in Sf and OAkland, we had a great response..People drove far to perform and I had my first art show "in" OAkland, which it happened to be the first night of heavy rain so attendance was low but we had a blast none the less!

GO magazine launched at Salon Du Troll a super groovy mag by Ruby RAy and Dog Swan.



The new year is about to begin and i am re-directing energy and will conduct some magic to help guide me into 2011.

San Francisco here I come!!!!Thursday Dec 16th

I AM teaming up with Dog Swan again to put on a night of complete surreal sensations!
I will be performing for the first time at Salon Du Troll Plus I will have some of my newest videos premiering along with all these other talented folks@!do not miss it!
SPace is very very limited get there early! fer reals!