my eyes shall bleed here is my other forcast on love and more heartache

special relationship which celebrates one's growth as a woman. Creativity which manifests as physical product, whether that be children, artistic endeavors, or wealth.



Great energy that flows unbounded. Beginning of a focused, creative period. Inspiration that inspires action. New opportunities. The active, or yang, aspect of life. Growth.



Movement into the next phase of life. If you are feeling impatient, don't worry--transitions will go smoothly, as if you are being pulled by the twin forces of fate and fortune. Career advancement.



An interest in spiritual knowledge. A teacher who will share with you what you are seeking, or perhaps you are that teacher. Wisdom gained in a graceful manner.



A renewed awareness of the nature of passionate love, and what is needed to encourage it. Artistic creativity. Sexuality. The integration within oneself of the masculine and feminine.



Worries that keep one awake. An issue that needs to be looked at more closely; only then will it be transformed. Fear or nagging anxiety.



Success, good fortune,creativity. All is well with the world; your highest hopes are supported by the universe. Any feelings of insecurity and unworthiness are to be banished from your thoughts. Follow your dreams without fear or censure.



Great satisfaction. Contentment. Some consider this card the wish card -- meaning a wish will be granted if this card appears in a spread. Earthly delights

A recent Tarot reading for ye ol' heart

This is a period for communication, a period for social life, for meeting new people. Pursue new activities. You'll find in them the solution to many problems; you'll be positively surprised. 



You need to think about you. You have to take a break; you are dominated by the speed at which events are happening without realizing that you've forgotten about you and your feelings. You have the support of your friends. Enjoy loneliness! It will help you discover what you really want but can't have yet. You'll find love sooner than expected.



Look at all the things that surround you. A new kind of energy has sprung in you, filling you with love; it is time now to learn how to use all this. Enjoy even the smaller things of life. Your bright ideas will favor the people around you. Favorable period to start a stable relationship.

You are seeing the results of your efforts and this stimulates you; you’re getting closer to the goals that you’ve set. Think carefully before taking any decision, this is a period of drastic changes in your life. You'll have enough confidence to move forward with courage and not to give up. Period of spiritual growth. A dream will be reborn. New lovers and relationships.



TEMPERANCE AND DREAMS: You have to set goals, objectives, dreams; those are the things that give meaning to our lives. Be confident; you'll achieve everything that you want because you have the energy and strength to do it.



This is a favorable period for friendship. Let new people enter in your life. Discover new and interesting friends in your workplace or college. You'll feel protected by people who love you and respect you. Suggest new and exciting activities to share with your friends; you'll live unforgettable moments.


JUSTICE AND SEX: During this period it is very likely that your personal conflicts will affect sex with your partner. You'll feel confused, and even in some occasions, you'll have to pretend to be alright. Try to talk about this with some intimate friend because the negative consequences of this period may affect the future stability of your relationship. If you don't have a partner, be sensible when selecting one.

Welcome Home Doll PArts

Well, my obsession with Courtney Love began in 1991-1992. She graced the cover of SASSY magazine with her boyfriend that had bright red hair and the best powdery blue mohair sweater I had ever seen, she had bleached messy hair that resembled Nancy Spungen and smeared lipstick , a look I had done since the eighth grade...I was naturally drawn to this look, maybe because my mom had it throughout 70's, the witchy look as my mother titled herself, I come from a long line of witches,but that's a whole other blog.

Regardless my nine years of dedicating wall space, ear noise, visual cosmetics to this woman that I had a passion and inspiration from came to a halt when she decided to start impressing the Hollywood crowd, the kept hair, designer dresses and meek persona really turned me off, though i respect what she was feeling I wasn't turned on by it, and you have got to remember she did get to hangout with Liz Taylor (yes I am jealous)...I have kept all my keepsakes Courtney has given me over the years: barrettes,cigarette butts and ribbons...

I have seen Courtney/Hole at least a dozen times since 1992, different line ups, same songs and the crowd always seems to get younger over the years? Or I guess I am just getting older?

Also I have close friends that have been close with Mz.LOve I've heard all the horror stories of deceit, mistrust and burnt bridges, yet I can't help but feel emotional and protective of her. Every encounter I have had with her, though brief have been very kind and sweet.

I Went and experienced the newest version of HOLE last night at BUMBERSHOOT in Seattle with Tracy Cilona,A FELLOW cOURTNEY loveR....

Courtney SHINED BRIGHT! it was her homecoming, she picked some goodies to play! Opening with Pretty on the Inside segueing into Rolling Stones...As soon as the first words came out of the Queens mouth I had an adrenalin rush and ran through the on-lookers like a 15-year-old girl, plowing through one of the most boring crowds i have ever witnessed at a concert. It seemed as though the crowd was frozen,and were only there to snap pics with their camera phones, evil eyes were on me for dancing and singing. Really Seattle, you are at a live show, there is rock music being played! Loosen up!!!!

The set was brilliant and tears welded my eyes into salty rivers twice! This woman still does it for me! I am close to 40 now and to have these feelings emulate through my being feels sooooo damn good!!!!!

Thank you Courtney for having balls, for speaking out of turn, bleeding infront of the world, expressing truth, being bad, being evil, getting whatever the hell you want, for having a fire burn inside you, thank you Courtney for being filled with so much passion! so much talent! creating another being, so much beauty, sometimes even ugly beauty, for putting your fist in the face of those surrounding you, thank you for those words you sing, thank you for publicly showing pain, and always dressing better than those other girls,for being a goddess and warrior, a whore a tramp an entity to reckon with.......

and in all honesty I really don't think that 1 percent of the population will or has ever "ached like u ache", and thus they will never understand what it's like to have to fight, bite , kick,scratch to keep their souls like you have!

Thank You Courtney!

xoxoox
forever + ever yours..
Miss Oblivious